I have been going through MAJOR revolutions in terms of spirituality and enlightenment as of late. Some good, some bad, most confusing... but, ... I now know which race I'm running in.
At what point to you tell the people you love most that you've been PROVEN what direction is the best, most enlightened one, especially if you know they may not receive it well? Even BADLY?
I hope that if people love me, and want me to be happy with whatever direction I choose, then it shouldn't matter what way I'm going.
But something tells me it may matter anyway-- people, having their own experiences, making their own judgments of their experiences upon my life decisions, etc. ... I really wish everyone the freedom to make their own decisions without others judging. That is our right.
Ah well-- my life is enlightened, nonetheless-- and I am shocked at the breadth and heighth of it.
And after all, it is my life, and I am making a conscious decision as an adult, with all of the knowledge and research I have done at this point. (Which is actually quite a bit, for me atleast).
Sorry if it's all vague--I may change that soon.
From here on out, NO APOLOGIES. PERIOD. I AM WHO I CHOOSE TO BE. And I am MORE FREE than I have ever remembered being.
I love you. You are brilliant. Don't feel like you have to explain yourself to them. If they can see how truly happy your decisions make you, maybe they will not only understand, but take the opportunity to re-evaluate their own lives and happiness as well. This decision is for you and your family. I can't express how happy I am for you.
self exploration and spirituality is a personal thing. i hope that no one feels the need to judge you for your belief system. that would just be silly. i think you are awesome and you should just continue to rock on with your bad self!!
Wow, I am really curious to hear what's brought on this flood of enlightenment! I suggest that if people critcize your choice based on their own experiences or convictions, just tell them that you'll think about it and then continue doing whatever it is you want to do. Treat it like input and nothing else. As long as you're not breaking any laws or doing anything life-threatening, what others say is only a matter of opinion.
I believe it's always good to stand up for what you believe in, no matter how badly it may be received. Show the iron in your spine, do everything on purpose, only YOU can change you, etc etc.
Sara, I believe in you; you can do anything and be anything you want. I feel good about the direction you're going in. It's hard when you're sure of a direction & everyone thinks you're somewhat foolish. It can put you on the defensive edge. But if no one understands, well, feel good knowing you understand yourself. That's what everyone wants, and what I want more of.
i sure love you.